So go and take more than you need/ All your sins have been washed clean/ And you're only human

[spacemonkeyluvn]

Ianto.

I knew it was coming thanks to rumors and one fucktard who actually spoiled it, but I was so not ready for that. I doubt I ever could be. He was is one of my most favorite characters ever and the main reason I even watch(ed?) Torchwood. I can't even write in capslock right now because while I'm angry, I mostly feel numb. I know it might be crazy for some of you, but I was already in a very emotional state. I watched a really depressing couple of episodes of another show and then stayed up all night watching sad vids and crying and now? I'm crying so hard I'm actually shaking. I feel sick to my stomach. It's bad enough they killed him (how they thought that could ever be a good idea, I don't know), but him dying and asking Jack not to forget him broke me.

And Jack couldn't say it to him. He couldn't even say 'I love you' as he was dying. Although I did break even more when Jack told Ianto not to leave him. Reminded me of Sam and Frodo and, God, how much they made me cry back in the day.

Gwen was fixing his tie.

I don't care how stupid, unrealistic, easy-way-out it is. THEY NEED TO BRING HIM BACK. NOW. Please.

STOP FUCKING KILLING EVERYONE ALREADY. WE GET IT. JACK CAN'T DIE AND GWEN'S MORE OF A MAIN CHARACTER THAN JACK IS. THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO KILL EVERYONE ELSE.

As sad as they were before, I don't think I can handle these pics now. Hell, I don't think I can even watch the first two seasons now.



Also, because he was a sweet old man who has only suffered in his life, let me add that I was crying for Clem too <3

Comments

[myhappyface.livejournal.com]

I am SUPER SAD about this. Frankly, I'm hoping for a do-over, too, even though I'm normally against them; I want Ianto back.

I do think Jack said he loved him though. Promising not to forget him for a thousand years.

Shit.

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

I'm normally against them too, even when I like the character. But Ianto needs to come back. He just does.

I know Jack said that he loved him, but can you just imagine the joy on Ianto's face if he actually heard those three words come out of Jack's mouth? Even thinking Jack was just saying because he was dying. It would have meant the world to him.

Although if actions speak louder than words, Jack telling the 456 that he takes it all back, he'll do whatever they say, just don't hurt Ianto... that says quite a bit right there <3

I knew it wasn't going to be a 'happily ever after' for them, but Ianto deserved better than that. (The death, I mean)

[myhappyface.livejournal.com]

Oh dude, I know, when he was screaming, "I take it back, not him, just not him!" I lost my shit.

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

A part of me wants to rewatch that whole scene because I guess I'm an emotional masochist, but the rest of me hates that part of me. I just don't think I can cry anymore. I already have a headache and red, puffy eyes. I need to clean my glasses because I can't see through them.

The only other TW icons I have are happy and that just feels wrong :(

[myhappyface.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I'm going to have to make some appropriately OH GOD THIS SHOW BREAKS MY HEART icons in a bit.

[marksofbattle.livejournal.com]

Oh god, Ianto. I'm still crying. I don't know if I'll even be able to watch Day Five tomorrow, I could bearly even watch the rest of the episode even though I knew it was coming because of that stupid spoiler. I don't know if I'll even be bale to watch day five tomorrow if he doesn't come back I just can't.

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

I'm still crying too. I have to watch Day Five though. For one, I need to know what happens. But more importantly if they don't bring Ianto back, I have to know what happenes so I can find a plausible way to bring him back in my head.

But they really need to bring him back. I'm begging/praying/hoping that because he didn't die in the 'final' episode, there's still a chance for him. If not, I don't know what I'll do.

[marksofbattle.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think that's what will mainly drive me to watch it tomorrow. To see how Jack deals with it and what happens but I'm not sure I'll be watching season 4 if there is one.

YES, there is still hope! I hope so, so much.

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

I just remembered that my journal's name (or subject or whatever) is still 'King Ianto's Coffee Club. Join it for everlasting peace and damn fine coffee.'

:(

♥HOPE♥

[marksofbattle.livejournal.com]

I'd likely end up crying everytime I saw it just because I am that emotional over this whole thing right now.

And if that fails there is always denial. I will go live in my happy denial land where this all happened but Ianto survived and it's all shiny.

[rainbow-goddess.livejournal.com]

I don't even want to watch tomorrow night. I don't want there to be a Torchwood without Ianto. Jack screaming at the 456 "NOT HIM NOT HIM!" pretty much broke me right there. And I had just this glimmer of hope that when he kissed Ianto, it would bring him back, because he did that back in the first season in "Cyberwoman."

I will be watching and waiting for them to bring him back tomorrow night, and if they don't, I am done with Torchwood. I'm not enough of a masochist to keep watching it. Next thing you know, they'll do something horrible with Gwen's baby.

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

Honestly, there isn't a Torchwood without Ianto. He pretty made everything run as smoothly as it did.

Ianto needs to come back. If he doesn't, I don't even want to see another series. I'm not in it for a whole new cast. There was a small enough one to begin with. I don't want the Jack and Gwen show :/

[kirke-novak.livejournal.com]

There was The Kiss. Let's hope it was The Kiss of Life not just some random kiss.
*fingers crossed*

As for the death scene itself, I was watching it with one eyebrow up. It was unbelievably cheesy and so badly acted, I though I will facepalm. Seriously, think Owen and Tosh - I was crying, I was caring. Here, I couldn't even shrug. Not to mention his death was so pointless and the lead to it (Jack threatening the Aliens... oh how smart) just wallbangerish.
No I think he'll be back. If not.... *shakes fist*

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

Come on, Kiss of Life!

COME ON, KISS OF LIFE!!

[justbolognese.livejournal.com]

I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU. MY HEART IS BROKEN D:

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

I'm kind of surprised by how much this has affected me. It's a little... sad, LOL.

My eyes are so swollen right now. I'm afraid to watch Day 5 :(

[dimlondeiel.livejournal.com]

I seem to be one of the very few that hadn't heard the rumours of Ianto's death, probably because I've managed to avoid all spoilers this season by staying clear of the comms. I'd have been really really pissed off if I'd been spoiled for it though. It still feels like a complete slap in the face for him to be killed off, that's three team members killed off in six episodes. It just feels a bit excessive to me, I know that there is no point killing off someone when it's not going to shock and make the audience reel a bit but if they wanted to kill someone off this year it should have been one of the recurring characters and not one of the three remaining team members. Not after Owen and Tosh last year.

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

No, I hear ya. And the fact that they killed him off just so Jack would have a reason to leave really pisses me off. I get that this is Torchwood and nobody lives very long, and Jack is a 'tragic' character who loses everything he loves, but really? I don't care what their reasons were. There was no need to kill him. Especially, as you say, since they already killed Tosh AND Owen last year.