So go and take more than you need/ All your sins have been washed clean/ And you're only human

[spacemonkeyluvn]

Ianto.

I knew it was coming thanks to rumors and one fucktard who actually spoiled it, but I was so not ready for that. I doubt I ever could be. He was is one of my most favorite characters ever and the main reason I even watch(ed?) Torchwood. I can't even write in capslock right now because while I'm angry, I mostly feel numb. I know it might be crazy for some of you, but I was already in a very emotional state. I watched a really depressing couple of episodes of another show and then stayed up all night watching sad vids and crying and now? I'm crying so hard I'm actually shaking. I feel sick to my stomach. It's bad enough they killed him (how they thought that could ever be a good idea, I don't know), but him dying and asking Jack not to forget him broke me.

And Jack couldn't say it to him. He couldn't even say 'I love you' as he was dying. Although I did break even more when Jack told Ianto not to leave him. Reminded me of Sam and Frodo and, God, how much they made me cry back in the day.

Gwen was fixing his tie.

I don't care how stupid, unrealistic, easy-way-out it is. THEY NEED TO BRING HIM BACK. NOW. Please.

STOP FUCKING KILLING EVERYONE ALREADY. WE GET IT. JACK CAN'T DIE AND GWEN'S MORE OF A MAIN CHARACTER THAN JACK IS. THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO KILL EVERYONE ELSE.

As sad as they were before, I don't think I can handle these pics now. Hell, I don't think I can even watch the first two seasons now.



Also, because he was a sweet old man who has only suffered in his life, let me add that I was crying for Clem too <3

Comments

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

I just remembered that my journal's name (or subject or whatever) is still 'King Ianto's Coffee Club. Join it for everlasting peace and damn fine coffee.'

:(

♥HOPE♥

[marksofbattle.livejournal.com]

I'd likely end up crying everytime I saw it just because I am that emotional over this whole thing right now.

And if that fails there is always denial. I will go live in my happy denial land where this all happened but Ianto survived and it's all shiny.