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[spacemonkeyluvn]

Work was a sucky thing today. Might have thrown a little bitch-fit. Not in front of anyone exactly, but it's getting harder and harder to fake happiness there.

RL is also kind of sucking like a sucking thing right now. *le sigh* Some of it is at least partly my fault, but I just don't know how to stop. I'm having some trouble with depression lately and I find I'm losing interest in most things. Including my friends. I just don't feel connected to anyone any more. I hung out with a friend yesterday and had to fake smiles and laughs. I just didn't want to be there. Conversation was a struggle for me. My sleep/work schedule isn't helping matters. At all. And the fact that my birthday is in a week and a day is just making things worse. Haven't really been speaking to friends (no time or energy, and really, nothing to say) and now feel even worse about being alone. Aaaaand I've been eating such shite lately that I think it's really making me ill.

I'm trying really REALLY hard not to read/see any Doctor Who spoilers. While I'd love to squee and such with fandom, I want to be surprised. I want to keep the magic alive. I want to experience it for the first time when it airs as a completed thing.

Still more than a little in love with Sherlock. Spend all my time online reading fanfic like I haven't done in ages. Fanfic, fanvids, picspams, etc. Lovin' it.

PS I won 1st place in the header contest at sherlockland!

Comments

[entwashian.livejournal.com]

That is a kickass header.

I hope things improve for you soon. <3

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

Why thank you! I had done a different one, wasn't too happy with it, showed it to my brother and he said 'Yeah, you could do better.' So I tried again and was pleasantly surprised.

Thank you again <3 I guess things aren't TOO bad, considering. I just feel like I'm constantly hosting a pity part (party of one) these days. Woe is me ;)

[hananaki.livejournal.com]

OMG I know exactly how you feel about your friends.
Lately I've been getting the same feeling.I hope that if I talk to them it will be solved but lately my mood is below zero so everything seems to be wrong.I think it will be better in time and it is just a phase.
Be strong until then

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

Well I hope things get better for you too! I'm not sure what this funk is about, but they've passed before and I suspect it'll pass again. In the mean time we'll be strong together =D