spacemonkeyluvn | (no subject)

My mom is an immature child. So is my brother, which only causes my mom to act even more stupid. I even just tried helping her with dinner. I asked a question about something and then she started getting mad and acting like I was attacking her. Then she told me to leave her alone. WTF? Leave me alone. Jesus. I haven't been doing too well with my anxiety and panic attacks, and talking to her just makes it worse. And then because I didn't know the broccoli was ready, I didn't take any. So she throws it away. Violently. Now, she just slammed the door and got in the car. If she drives off in a fit of rage, it won't be the first time. The sad thing is that she didn't even drink anything. She's worse when she's drunk :/

I haven't been able to do anything I want because my mom is cooking in the kitchen and my 'bedroom' is connected to the kitchen. I can't watch what I want. I really don't want to watch my things on the computer when my mom can see them, and because she's cooking, she wants to watch what she wants on the TV. I can't even relax because all I feel is her anger and tension right next to me. All I wanted to do today was nothing except watch movies because I have work from 7-3 tomorrow. And last night I couldn't go to sleep until at least 2:30am. I know this because the Family Guy rerun was on Adult Swim.

I would much rather hang out with my friends, but they're all with their own families. My dad, stepmother, and sister came by for a short visit on their way to Safari West. Sometimes I really hate that they do so much as a family without me (and my brother, but he never wants to go anywhere). I mean, I went to Canada with them, and on that RV trip, but they never asked me if I even wanted to go on that cruise to the Bahamas they took.

Whatever. I'm getting on my own nerves. I hope everyone is having a better day than me ^_^