To love the language you got to be born on the banks of the Mississippi

[spacemonkeyluvn]

I should really stop getting excited about things. All it does is end in heartache and me wallowing in self pity. I knew it too. It's nothing big; it just looks like I won't be able to go to Japantown this weekend. But the whole time I was thinking about how fun it was going to be, I was also thinking that I shouldn't get my hopes up because something is bound to happen. And it did:

I feel so bad for my boss. She recently had knee surgery and has slowly been getting better (even though she's basically being forced to start working already) but she fell in the shower last night and had to have her knee drained (there was blood) and it looks like she might be back at beginning in terms of her recovery. I tell my mom I might have to open on Saturday - just for the three hours until the next manager comes in - but my mom gets mad and says to just forget about the whole thing. She doesn't want to leave that late/we won't find parking/it'll be too crazy. Whatever. Then, after being pissy for a while, she tells me that she doesn't think we'd be able to go anyway because she isn't feeling well and thinks she has a fever.

All this is perfectly logical. Sucky, but whatever. Shit happens. Except my mom getting so upset. I'm the one in retail who never gets weekends off. If anyone has the right to be disappointed, it's me. I sound like a child, but when your parent acts like one, it kind of rubs off on you. Also hilarious is my brother calling me lazy because I slept in until noon even though I've actually graduated college and have a job while he's turning 21 this month and does nothing but play videogames all day. He gets paid for taking care of our grandma, but I do just as much as he does. He's also been failing in school, has pretty much slacked off, and might not even be going this semester.

I really need to:

1. Get a better paying job (not the most likely of scenarios right now)
2. Get my license and my own vehicle
3. Move out of here

And I'm working on it. I'm really trying to save right now. I've been pretty good about watching my spending. I haven't really bought anything for myself recently. Most of my money goes to student loans and medical bills these days anyway. I'm working on getting good credit and being a responsible adult so I don't have to live with such children anymore.

But I think what's making things even harder right now is that my friends all have actual lives going on. Some have kids now, some have boyfriends/husbands with whom they spend all their time (I think that's gramatically correct). And because my schedule varies week-to-week and I almost never have any weekend time off, I can't really plan anything with them, even when they do have free time.

I also REALLY need to get back to eating better. This past week, I've had BK like 3 times, and today I just had pizza and a chocolate lava cake which totally burned my tongue :( So this is it. I'm going to find a bunch of healthy recipes and actually make them. I'm going to even try working out. My bike is in the shed and I wonder if it's still good. I might just need to inflate the tires and brush off the cobwebs. But yes, even something as simple as getting outside for a bit. At least I'm moving at work and not just sitting at a desk. But I need to do more. I just find that on my days off, all I want to do is sleep.

*le sigh*

I'm just in a funky mood. I think I'll take a shower, get into bed, watch Camp Rock, and then watch some Middleman.

Up next? Probably something about the JoBros ;)
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Comments

[midnightwhisper.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It is incredibly hard when the parental acts like a child. Mine do it very often. :/ And your brother sounds oddly like my sister. Except she's not even finished high school. >.> But she bitched at me through out my entire year of college that "she has a job and I have it so easy". At least we have a college education bb! We're fierce!

[spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

We're Tyra Banks fierce. Or non-sparkly vampire fierce! I'll be JoBro fierce. Which is actually more of an adorable dorkitude, but it's all good.