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Oct. 19th, 2010 12:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spacemonkeyluvnBefore work tomorrow, I get to call about a doctor appointment and jury duty. FUN. And I keep having moments of HOLYSHITIMNOTGOINGTOHAVEAJOBORMONEYINLESSTHANTWOWEEKS anxiety and panic. ALSO FUN. Things are strained. Both at home and at work. I was screaming at my mom last night and sobbing. After having already broken down in the bathroom at work. I'd hate to experience a full blown nervous breakdown.
I had to stay an extra 1 1/2 hours at work today. Should've been happy about OT, but when you're already in a fragile frame of mind and you have things planned out and you're ready to leave at a certain time... Plus, my Co 'asked' if I could stay (about 5 minutes before I was to leave) even though nobody else could come in to cover, so really I HAD to stay and she was being... I'm not sure what word I'm looking for here. But she was being very THAT and I might have thrown a little bitch fit and was on the verge of tears. I know it's that time of the month, but that's not normal. Even for me. I don't necessarily mind being crazy, I just don't like not being in control of my emotions/actions. Oh, to be a Vulcan... It's just very tiring being slightly unstable. Unhinged. Where once I was simply not looking forward to work, now I DREAD it. I start to feel physically ill at the thought of having to spend time there especially with certain people.
At least this made me smile (from https://www.bbcsurvey.co.uk/):
Oh, and !!!!!!!!!!
I had to stay an extra 1 1/2 hours at work today. Should've been happy about OT, but when you're already in a fragile frame of mind and you have things planned out and you're ready to leave at a certain time... Plus, my Co 'asked' if I could stay (about 5 minutes before I was to leave) even though nobody else could come in to cover, so really I HAD to stay and she was being... I'm not sure what word I'm looking for here. But she was being very THAT and I might have thrown a little bitch fit and was on the verge of tears. I know it's that time of the month, but that's not normal. Even for me. I don't necessarily mind being crazy, I just don't like not being in control of my emotions/actions. Oh, to be a Vulcan... It's just very tiring being slightly unstable. Unhinged. Where once I was simply not looking forward to work, now I DREAD it. I start to feel physically ill at the thought of having to spend time there especially with certain people.
At least this made me smile (from https://www.bbcsurvey.co.uk/):
Oh, and !!!!!!!!!!
