spacemonkeyluvn | (no subject)

There seems to be a lot of crap going around, so for what it's worth, I just want to give y'all a hug.

I'm experiencing a bit of my own crap/drama with my health and work situation.

Since I haven't been there for a year yet, I don't qualify for a medical leave of absence. And since I was only promoted in February, I don't have any vacation time either. I get 2 weeks of personal time (or whatever), but anything more than that and they can basically start looking for someone else to take my job. I would be able to reapply, but I would have been let go, rehired, and lost what benefits I had. We're going to try to do every thing we can, but this is not what I need right now. I'm worried enough as it over my surgery (despite how routine it may be), not getting a paycheck for the time I'm out, and what I'll have to cover in terms of medical costs. I don't need to worry about losing my job and having what little benefits I have taken away.

I want to get back to work ASAP, but I can't unless my doctor says it's okay and I just don't know what to do if it takes longer than I'm allowed.

Add to that the fact that my mom is probably going to have to work on Monday and my dad will probably come up, but not until afterwards, and I'm looking at being alone going into surgery. Which I understand, but I still find it upsets me more than I'd like. As in, I burst into tears when I think about it.

I know based on what some other people are going through, I really shouldn't be complaining. I know I'm lucky with what I do have. I'm just a worrier by nature and this is all bringing out the worst in me (I'm probably the most pessimistic optimist you'll ever see). I'm worried I'll fall back into my really bad panic attacks and anxiety and I really don't want to go there again.

Alright, enough of that nonsense. Guess who's coming to San Francisco?!?! Alas, it's not Toma. But it is...

KING TUT

June 27 through September 30, 2009 and Oct 1, 2009 through March 28, 2010. It's open on my birthday!!! How sweet would that be? Short of actually going to Egypt (or Japan), that would be definitely be a top thing to do. I'm a geek like that.

Also in happier news, I've changed my header again. I loved Toma's photoshoot so much (see below), and it was so colorful, that I just had to do something with it. Nothing special (really), but it makes me smile -

spacemonkeyluvn

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Sounds like a groovy birthday activity! I would recommend bringing Bruce Cambpell dressed as Elvis for backup, just in case.

I hope you can work something out about having company before going into surgery! Sister or brother, maybe?

LOL. I wish I had access to Bruce Campbell dressed as Elvis.

My sister is in San Jose (and only 14). She might come with my dad though. And my brother needs to be home to watch our 93 year-old grandmother so she doesn't get confused and try running away. Again.

I'm sure we'll figure something out though. I'm just being more emo than usual. After all, I'd rather my mom go to work and still have a job than just have to be there while they put me out. Her boss is something of a bitch and it's not worth it to get her into trouble.

Don't we all! ;D

I'm pretty sure it does not count as emo if the surgeon is the one doing the cutting. I'd say her boss is definitely a bitch if she won't give someone a day off to see her daughter into surgery.

I'm pretty sure it does not count as emo if the surgeon is the one doing the cutting.

LOL. You got me there.

And the 'funny' thing about my mom's bitch of a boss is that she's also my godmother.

O__O